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Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Kor, You are the #1 Idiot in the whole world, galaxy and everything else! I have no idea why you're so ego that the milky way isn't even big enough for your disgustingly big ego and neither do I have any idea why I still love you so much! Anyway thank you for the past week(and weekend, and years to be exact)! You've been always there, to cheer me up, make me whack you and act all gentlemanly like 'Oh, no I really didn't do anything to make her hit me (Puppy eyes)', allow me to mention your crush to annoy you(eh 12 years! Do sth about it alr!), do all the stupid dares that I ask you to do just to make me laugh, watch you drink vodka and get damn high and attempt to get into your car and drive away but never making it past the door so i always have to get the key for you, and a million other things which i wouldn't say cos they're so embarrassing and I can't believe we used to do the silliest stuff when we were younger! Anyway, you should start taking photos with me and allowing me to post them online, otherwise i'll post up your 3 year old nude photos and let all your friends laugh like mad at your little...(hands lah! Dirty cheekohpeh) :) So yes, a huge thank you, and I'll see you soon, yay :)

See, i told you I'd think that what I said was super childish as well, and yeah yay everything's settled, I kindda scolded Grace(actually, no. I just stated facts) and everything's better than normal yaaaaaay I'm happy again. Gosh, i need morbid posts! (But how to! Especially since CAs are over and neopets are calling meeee)

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Megalife yesterday. I was left speechless, humbled, and crying out for more. That's all I can say, and really, it was Awesome.
To: Janel and the rest of the cell, mw, vanessa, nicol, and everyone else I saw, thank you :) You guys give me so much strength when I feel like crap :)

Anyway, I'm gonna give up on friendships. I know it's quite childish and I'm gonna regret saying this because of a few people whom I think are totally worth it, totally worth dying for, but majority of my friends are, I don't know. I know i've got some really great friends but friendships are just making me so tired out. I don't like small catfights over nothing, I don't like being in the middle, I don't like being pushed around like some toy, I don't like being forced to go with a particular person, I don't like having to choose, I don't like feeling like crap, I don't like being blamed for something that's partly my fault, but isn't totally my fault. The whole, Deniisha/Sella-Becky-Rahmah thing is driving me up the wall, making me go crazy till I don't even know who I am anymore. I don't want to care, but i can't not. I hate how friends have a reign over my life, and I hate how i'm not doing anything about it.

There's only one constant in the world :)
God, thank you.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

H: What do you wanna be when you grow up?
N: I want to be a good person, cos it's so hard to be a good person nowadays

Saturday, February 16, 2008

LEE MIN KI <3
Zhang Dong Liang
Ryan Gosling
Jake Gyllenhaal
He Jun Xiang
Ryan Phillippe
James Franco
George Clooney
Joe Cheng
David Beckham
Milo Ventimiglia
Masi Oka
Sendhil Ramamurthy
Patrick Dempsey
Cody Linley
Chris Daughtry
Ace Young
Chris Richardson
Blake Lewis
David Archuleta
Luke Menard
Ryan Seacrest

Waaaa My heart melt.

Friday, February 1, 2008

Ran in the rain just now, it was therapeutic and it made me feel waaaaaaaaay better. I jogged to Pasir Ris park and just sat on the rocks, letting the rain wash away everything I was feeling, so thank you, rain. For letting me cry, and for the silence. I've been feeling like crap the entire week, (Here's where I start messing up and pulling my hair) and I realise, I fall short of plenty. I've been left with no choice, but to go to God. I know I don't like going to Him, talking to Him, cos I feel guilty of being away for far too long, but I was left with no choice, after deciding to bottle up all my feelings inside.

Dear God,
Thank you, for everything, and more.

Love, Hannah

Once again, heading to pray's one of the best experiences ever. I always put long prayers off as I'm so busy(!!) but once you start, you can't stop. God, thank you, for allowing me to come back into your presence, cry my heart out, and know I'm okay, even if the whole world feels I'm not, cos you've got me, and I know You'll hold me whenever I cry, and catch me whenever I fall. As always, God, You Win. You did, do, and always will. So here's my heart, my soul, my mind, my actions, my thoughts, my emotions, my pain and suffering, my happiness and everything else I've failed to mention. You've got my heart, and I belong to you, and You alone. Thank you, for never abandoning me, for never giving up on me, for bleeding for me, for crying for me, for watching over me. Your love, acceptance, and care, they're priceless. I surrender my all, to you. I'm letting you lead me, mould me into someone you'll be proud of. Thank You, for being Real :)

"Recently I overheard a father and daughter in their last moments together. They had announced her departure and standing near the security gate, they hugged and he said, "I love you. I wish you enough." She in turn said, "Daddy, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Daddy."They kissed and she left.

He walked over toward the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see he wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by asking, "Did you ever say goodbye to someone knowing it would be forever?"
"Yes, I have," I replied.
"Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever goodbye?" I asked.
"I am old and she lives much too far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is, the next trip back would be for my funeral," he said.
"When you were saying goodbye I heard you say, "I wish you enough." May I ask what that means?"
He began to smile. "That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone." He paused for a moment and looking up as if trying to remember it in detail, he smiled even more."
When we said 'I wish you enough,' we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them," he continued and then turning toward me he shared the following as if he were reciting it from memory.

"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish enough "Hello's" to get you through the final "Goodbye."

He then began to sob and walk away.

I WISH YOU ENOUGH. :)