Megalife yesterday. I was left speechless, humbled, and crying out for more. That's all I can say, and really, it was Awesome.
To: Janel and the rest of the cell, mw, vanessa, nicol, and everyone else I saw, thank you :) You guys give me so much strength when I feel like crap :)

Anyway, I'm gonna give up on friendships. I know it's quite childish and I'm gonna regret saying this because of a few people whom I think are totally worth it, totally worth dying for, but majority of my friends are, I don't know. I know i've got some really great friends but friendships are just making me so tired out. I don't like small catfights over nothing, I don't like being in the middle, I don't like being pushed around like some toy, I don't like being forced to go with a particular person, I don't like having to choose, I don't like feeling like crap, I don't like being blamed for something that's partly my fault, but isn't totally my fault. The whole, Deniisha/Sella-Becky-Rahmah thing is driving me up the wall, making me go crazy till I don't even know who I am anymore. I don't want to care, but i can't not. I hate how friends have a reign over my life, and I hate how i'm not doing anything about it.


There's only one constant in the world :)
God, thank you.